Wonderful evening.

I awoken. by a freezing blow of a wind. the clock showed a quarter to six. it was a wonderful evening.
sunday. last day of the week which i can play basketball during evening time. but the sky is dark and gloomy. the ground is wet,flooded with water. there has been a pouring rain. again.
dong.. i wore my lovely sport shoes and went for a jog. heading to the basketball court. perhaps some wanted to play basketball too on this evening.


i jogged all the way non-stop. yea..my stamina has increased. along the way, i felt the "fur" on my hand stood straight as they were kissed by the chilling wind. it has been so long to have such a feeling since secondary. calm. and peaceful. thoughts came by again.
i saw some house are great. their interior is nice. i thought of my parents. my dad. from nothing he had now provided us a home. simple and nice. every single thing , furniture, lights, even the plants outside are belong to us. surprisingly , he came to kl with nothing.
there is already a bound of agreement that he will provide everything sufficient for us to live comfortably since the day he met my mother. and their marriage anniversary.
but so far he had done a good job. he tried. he had provided a basic home. my generation would be a better home. yea.. i'm adult now. i'm 20.

owh. suddenly i realised that i had reached the court. there are a few newbies playing basketball. some played football in the court. there i kept running around the court. well just walking.
looking around, the green environment now is polluted by some garbish here and there. there is a hole at the side of the court. how the court has changed from the first time i came here really a disappointing thought.

dong..i'm lost in my thoughts again. basically a different perception in life will cause chaos in a family. my perception towards life is that be a good person and know-how to teach the next generation , regardless what failure come to your life, don't be disappointed and stand up from the fall. and study is still a must without emphasizing it.
their perception is to study and earn alot in future. no need to experience love. no sex before marriage. being a good person is a second priority. yea my fault, they still tought me to be good to others. but simply just not enough.
so i think i can live on my own perception and still obey them. i walk. without realising, i'm heading to my home. why do i think so much. is it because i started not to talk about my life. yea i realised i starting to neglect talking. i don't talk much like last time. friends, i need to talk. let me enjoy the joy of talking back. that's why i like bernice. she talks alot. and she seems to be always happy. good for her though.

life ain't just thinking. i told myself. i had been thinking to do this and that. however, today i finally realised. realise that it won't happen just by thinking. i will learn cooking this time. and chinese.
reached my home. the only thought in mind is to sit and have a great dinner with my great parents. life is great. it starts with wonderful evening.