When the time comes, the moon is bolstered by surrounding clouds. it takes some time for them to float away though.......
And while time pass, i heard the dog's long barking...... at 3 am morning.
It has been the third night. I dont understand. How a person can change to adapt , like me?
I dont sleep at night. already the third night. and so free to blog now.
What a walking zombie , i said to myself. I need to know what i need to answer the coming exam. I'm not too worry. Just that i dont want to disappoint myself again.
I seem to use to it. While u used to be in bed, im awake. to study something, which i will forget, and to pass exam.
In life, a pass is a standard. since when this is my standard. owh. disappointing.
but this is life. something which changed will not change back. i acknowledge this long. im not emo, i learnt to overcome it. in fact im too cool to emo at this moment.
i need the knowledge and solution to solve question in exam. just like everyone does.
just that my time management has gone out of order for a moment.
i wonder when i will faint. the fourth sleepness night? i never know. future is unpredictable?
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
A poem out of no where.
There is a moment,
in my life.
When warm feeling surrounded my heart.
I saw you, you and you.
Smiling towards me, eager to know me.
To share with me, to like me and to love me.
The moment i wished to freeze.
Yet i could not.
How awful it is.
Smile and laugh and deep in the heart, there
lay a trust and respect.
Want, express, and even thought to count on
you, you and you.
To share a secret. Unfoldable secret.
Somehow it just fade. Perhaps it breaks into pieces.
The feeling.
You just want to listen.
Everything but a crying heart.
It's hard.
When things had changed.
When you need,and
When you not, either don't include wanting of me.
When i thought i have found the treasure, in fact
i have not.
You will only be there,
to listen to my smile ,
not to my scream and cry.
Last time it used to be everything.
Now that i learn to be strong to.
Stand against betray.
Stand against hypocrates.
Stand against fakeness.
More or less is just the same me to you.
But not the key man.
Yes. I admit i lose to the man.
But it was my standard.
I do no wrong, just that i don't own the key.
When you ask me, you felt like begging.
I had always the want.
but i had much consideration either.
My fault. Nothing on your side.
Yet i still hope to improve.
And to accept. I love you deep inside.
I could not draw it out.
Let the clock do its job.
This happen to everyone.
It leads to no where.
A thought of no where.
_created by
-Ghin Shi-
in my life.
When warm feeling surrounded my heart.
I saw you, you and you.
Smiling towards me, eager to know me.
To share with me, to like me and to love me.
The moment i wished to freeze.
Yet i could not.
How awful it is.
Smile and laugh and deep in the heart, there
lay a trust and respect.
Want, express, and even thought to count on
you, you and you.
To share a secret. Unfoldable secret.
Somehow it just fade. Perhaps it breaks into pieces.
The feeling.
You just want to listen.
Everything but a crying heart.
It's hard.
When things had changed.
When you need,and
When you not, either don't include wanting of me.
When i thought i have found the treasure, in fact
i have not.
You will only be there,
to listen to my smile ,
not to my scream and cry.
Last time it used to be everything.
Now that i learn to be strong to.
Stand against betray.
Stand against hypocrates.
Stand against fakeness.
More or less is just the same me to you.
But not the key man.
Yes. I admit i lose to the man.
But it was my standard.
I do no wrong, just that i don't own the key.
When you ask me, you felt like begging.
I had always the want.
but i had much consideration either.
My fault. Nothing on your side.
Yet i still hope to improve.
And to accept. I love you deep inside.
I could not draw it out.
Let the clock do its job.
This happen to everyone.
It leads to no where.
A thought of no where.
_created by
-Ghin Shi-
A sunday.
twelve oclock. i sent the message. happy birthday. i always the last,at least im there. the moon still round. and yet my parents haven't sleep. neither me. they had their own conversation again. which i don't bother to know it. i know i can't annoy my dearest mom anymore. she has a real high pressure. gosh. god help her please.
an hour passed. 1am. i try to study. but more to listening to musics. songs. one fm dj surely knows lots of great song. i sang in the middle of the night. i know the other side they sang loud n joyfully as well. my imagination. owh.
clocks ticked at 3am. seriously why i don't feel sleepy? eventhough audit notes had a quite nice metaphore sleeping pills. i went to play dota one round, hope my eyes got tired. but leavers are just untolerable. silently. i hate them.
i watched scary movie instead. i download hostel. owh. ugly movie. lots of boobs scene though. ugly added with beautiful. why the directors always use this concept when making horrible disgusting movie? , i wonder sometimes.
seriously kids who have heart attack. please don't watch this at home. MUST go to Friend house. More exciting ,you die faster. Haha..
a movie by year 2005. Saturday, March 28, 2009
Fahrenheit concert@ Earth hour 2009?
It was a night. Four young sexy handsome man. Singing for the fans is the fahrenheit "fei lun hai" ...,bringing each princess to stage..lucky four local girls, yet normal girls. I bet they won't wash their hands after being hold by the four princes. Wu chun especially. gosh..
After they perform their band songs, they each perform individual "secret weapon " mi mi wu qi. And then, there is beat box by calvin, dj by jiro , piano "ti amo" by arron and wu chun ~ beating the drum.
He totally has muscular arms after learning drums...
absolute sexy body.
And fans surrounded me, got me almost become deft.
Far ahead before the concert started, it was 8.20 pm Earth hour officially starting in 10 mins, they had a different experience though.. i wonder how's there. small genting watching the glow into darkness. Here the stadium putra off for 1 min.. all the lights only from the fan's glowing sticks...and horny blue and red horn wore by some pretty chicks..
they totally changed their handsomeness with different hair styles.. Jiro the most yeng.. sad couldn't take current photo of them..
i bet it was boring....watching alone. but with friends it was an excellent view.Sunday, March 22, 2009
If you like to know...-my biodata-my confession.
Living a small home in Shah Alam,section 4, this boy has a small family and some little friends mixture of malay, chinese and indian. His name is Ghin Shi.
When he was a young boy, he cried when the mom left him alone at home. He will bang the front gate. For house in flat, there is just a couple of steps to the door.
When evening comes, he would scream out of the lung, that he can go out and cycle and play cricket, with friends, meet his best friend, franklin and bernard. Studying in sekyen 24 school, a malay environment school, everyday he would be accompanied by his mother in a walking distance towards home during afternoon. And at the age of 9 , he scored in the pts and appeared in newspaper. top three. he had this opportunity, to jump from standard 4 to standard 5.
Yet, he let it go. for a friend that he could not miss staying in the same class with him. or perhaps one can judge that he has tiny knowledge about "when you reach standard 6, you will still stand a chance to be separated". Things just cant stop changing. By the mid of standard 4, he has been moved to a new environment. A totally different place called Puchong.
He is a boy who simply intelligent but lack of courage to express. He likes his friends, but he is not a good friend. He thinks alot but hardly improve in usage of money. He is simply a guy which a girl would like to know, but later being neglected. He will neglect the girl. He watched x-rate,do masturbate. Stare at girls. But never touch.
People around him said that he has changed. But he believes everyone will change. When this happen ,it is already changed. Unless the changed one self review about himself. He blames this and that for things not working the right way. He pinpoint others, and himself. He likes his parent to know how good he as a son, parents to be there and playing basketball, to accompany him to explore and learn things. It just never happen. If you are good, and in this world there is no other to know , what's the point to be good. That's why he is the way he is. Besides,he has no money, property or gadget owned to impress his friends. All he has is ... his own personality, and the goal to outstand the rest. Yet he will still at your side when you 're down. He is a great motivator.
One day, he realised that he is stucked somewhere in his life. Unless confession, there is no way that he can achieve success. And to be able to confess, he needs courage. A high energy level. Today he outstands others by daring to express and confess what is no good about him. And how many can do that? This is Ghin Shi. Love him or stay a step from him. A step only. Still a friend to him. He can be very nice but also a mean one. So far ..... my reputation changes. o.O hope you enjoy my confession.
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When he was a young boy, he cried when the mom left him alone at home. He will bang the front gate. For house in flat, there is just a couple of steps to the door.
When evening comes, he would scream out of the lung, that he can go out and cycle and play cricket, with friends, meet his best friend, franklin and bernard. Studying in sekyen 24 school, a malay environment school, everyday he would be accompanied by his mother in a walking distance towards home during afternoon. And at the age of 9 , he scored in the pts and appeared in newspaper. top three. he had this opportunity, to jump from standard 4 to standard 5.
Yet, he let it go. for a friend that he could not miss staying in the same class with him. or perhaps one can judge that he has tiny knowledge about "when you reach standard 6, you will still stand a chance to be separated". Things just cant stop changing. By the mid of standard 4, he has been moved to a new environment. A totally different place called Puchong.
He is a boy who simply intelligent but lack of courage to express. He likes his friends, but he is not a good friend. He thinks alot but hardly improve in usage of money. He is simply a guy which a girl would like to know, but later being neglected. He will neglect the girl. He watched x-rate,do masturbate. Stare at girls. But never touch.
People around him said that he has changed. But he believes everyone will change. When this happen ,it is already changed. Unless the changed one self review about himself. He blames this and that for things not working the right way. He pinpoint others, and himself. He likes his parent to know how good he as a son, parents to be there and playing basketball, to accompany him to explore and learn things. It just never happen. If you are good, and in this world there is no other to know , what's the point to be good. That's why he is the way he is. Besides,he has no money, property or gadget owned to impress his friends. All he has is ... his own personality, and the goal to outstand the rest. Yet he will still at your side when you 're down. He is a great motivator.
One day, he realised that he is stucked somewhere in his life. Unless confession, there is no way that he can achieve success. And to be able to confess, he needs courage. A high energy level. Today he outstands others by daring to express and confess what is no good about him. And how many can do that? This is Ghin Shi. Love him or stay a step from him. A step only. Still a friend to him. He can be very nice but also a mean one. So far ..... my reputation changes. o.O hope you enjoy my confession.
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Moon.
they said moon is a natural satelite. by work of god. it is there. since? before the earth is created perhaps.
they said moon is a beautiful reflection from the sun. and where ever you view the moon, it is the same moon. but i believe every different place has a different reflection of it, different corner and different degree.
they said moon is great and u feel harmony and peaceful looking at it when you have a girl besides you. a girl which understands you. the girl whom you think is adorably sexy.
they said by the glance of the "bulan purnama" , you turn into wAreWolf, grasp the girl and off the stage to the bed. is just my myth. haha.
they said when you made a promise with a girl , that you will enjoy having a great view at the moon with the girl. then you will forever remember the girl whenever you see the moon if the promise never to be fulfilled. she will be nothing but just a memory to be in your mind.
i said i love moon. A rounded moon. stil , waiting for my moon.
That's why i post daily moon here. XD
they said moon is a beautiful reflection from the sun. and where ever you view the moon, it is the same moon. but i believe every different place has a different reflection of it, different corner and different degree.
they said moon is great and u feel harmony and peaceful looking at it when you have a girl besides you. a girl which understands you. the girl whom you think is adorably sexy.
they said by the glance of the "bulan purnama" , you turn into wAreWolf, grasp the girl and off the stage to the bed. is just my myth. haha.
they said when you made a promise with a girl , that you will enjoy having a great view at the moon with the girl. then you will forever remember the girl whenever you see the moon if the promise never to be fulfilled. she will be nothing but just a memory to be in your mind.
i said i love moon. A rounded moon. stil , waiting for my moon.
That's why i post daily moon here. XD
blog back. Backlot.
"you' ve been bz? why din u update ur blog" ?
yes. to be honest. im not. but. im lazy. for sometimes, i figure it out. why everyone starting to blog. blog is actually just a way of expression. express how daily routine u had in ur life. the question is do you like to be in routine or active and volatile in life?
im not. in any area. i dont like to be in routine. so i think i will just had something post on my blog, which a piece of handy for others. cool. thats right. thats the way..
yes. to be honest. im not. but. im lazy. for sometimes, i figure it out. why everyone starting to blog. blog is actually just a way of expression. express how daily routine u had in ur life. the question is do you like to be in routine or active and volatile in life?
im not. in any area. i dont like to be in routine. so i think i will just had something post on my blog, which a piece of handy for others. cool. thats right. thats the way..
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